looking at my text posts from just like 5 months ago. i seriously make myself sick. i am such a fucking naive, dumb, idiotic fucking teenager who falls in love at first sight, jesus christ, when the fuck am i going to grow up and stop being such a winey little bitch. fucking sick.
my babylove got me all 7 harry potter books and wrote me the sweetest funniest poem in all of existance. oh how do i love him with all my heart! he spoils me to much… but i love it! hehehe <3
you were 500 pounds you were gay you were into beastiality you killed 80 people you became a scinetoligist you were addicted to eating couch cusions even if.. i will still love you forever. forever and ever and unconditionaly love, pickles <3
so.. im sort of in love with you darling
im sorry for everything that she did, i dont think it was right either. if i could fix it i would. i dont even know why what happened affects me so much, it breaks my heart to see true love fall apart. but i guess all you can do is turn the page. its time to start a new chapter like she did. find love again. its possible.
i miss smoking ciggarettes, i miss drinking redbull, i miss getting high all day everyday, i miss vodka, i miss not caring, i miss having adventures in my head, i miss having wild dreams, i miss being able to sleep, i miss feeling like im on a sailboat every night but i like being successfull, i like having a clean room, i like having a future, i like being in love, i like knowing i have self...
connor will be 21 in like 2 and a half months.. fuuuck
its so weird to look at old bestfriends, how close you used to be, and how you both just, drifeted apart. you spent every weekend at eachothers houses, everyday after school just talking and watching tv. you were litterally sisters, called eachother sister, their parents mom and dad, their little sister, called you big sis. and even though she was a cheerleader and always talked about boys, and i...